Last team meeting for a friend of mine...

The mail wrote :

Agenda for Team Meeting:

1. Project Updates
2. Upcoming Project Highlights
3. Testing News
4. Birthdays and Farewell to team member
5. Cakes & Food session (the most FUN part of all) hehehe...

It's asri's last day today in Shell Testing Services and also Arinso Malaysia...will continue his career pursuit in Accenture ;)

Wishing you a very good luck...and hope it will be fun working there.
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Me and my brand new donut

Yes…good news…happy thing to hear...Donut got a new job offer from VADS. Yeay!!!
At last all my prayer answered. I really hope he can move on to a new job..better opportunities job
I hope he will do well there..impress everyone there…make friends with everybody…
And better off..earn extra more
I love you my sweet sugar Donut.

XoXo xoxo xOxO

Time Table

I am very delightful...Shell Canada projects is coming to an end. But yet it’s not for long, another projects awaits me :P well..have to work harder to prove myself. I always feel that I am not good enough…Damn I should work harder…and harder…

I sacrifice a lot for this projects…especially my quality time with donut, my sisters and even myself.

Daily routine during projects-

10:00 am – woke up from bed

11:00 am – already arrived at workplace

11:00 pm – went home

12:00 pm – sleep

What a boring life I have during last projects!!! Now..coming to an end I have mooore ample time.

Daily routine when project ended-

9:00 am – woke up ( dunno how but I get up earlier when I am not so stressful ) 10:00 am until 1:00 pm – Martha stewart + PS2

2:00 pm – arrived nicely in Shell

9:50 pm – hasty to get back home

Hihi…I really have fun during end of project time..still get the allowances and yet not doing anything ‘FANCY’ at workplace.

syu and me chilling out at the office

the cute clip

even cuter on my nose...hahaha

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Downloading...and downstream

Suddenly I got this cool download website-Multiply. Thanks to Syu ;)

Downloaded and listening to Aqua-Turn Back Time…memories recalls..happy..and bitter.
‘If only I could turn back time…If only I could…’
Everybody would have at least once that they can turn back the time, to correct problem change history, erase bad memory and to name a few.
What I wanted most is…to spend time with my mom
Out of nowhere I feel the emptiness inside me…it’s not that I miss her before..I have always miss her every single seconds of my life…but I keep my head centered back again…

Tonight..I feel different. I somehow realize something that I knew and makes me feel very very very extremely sad. I realize that I can never ever again in my life see my mom L and never be able to talk to her, feel the tenderness of her touch, eat her cooking, laughing at her jokes, being angry of her rules, seeing her lying watching soaps on TV(this is the favorite pose I like her the most), watching her after her prayer..after she bathes…her smell of powder, her daily face routine of Shiseido, putting on her jewelry, changing and picking up clothes before we go anywhere especially kenduri, hearing the sound of her Quran recital, sound of her coughing…sneeze…I can’t hear any of that..and even worse it’s more than I have listed here.

How I wish everything is different. How I wish I can change everything. How I wish my wish came true.

A promise that I have made to myself when my mom in ICU…if God save her I will stay at my hometown. Not working and taking of her 24/7. I don’t mind about not getting a fancy job…nor getting a soul mate whatsoever. I just want to spend my lifetime taking care and loving her without exceptions.

And somehow…deep down I can feel she knows and and wish that those things will never happen to me…she always wanted me to be a successful woman. With happy life and family and job. I can feel she made the sacrifice of letting me be who am I right now.

I would rather…taking care of her for the rest of my life…because I love her so much. Three years has passed and still, I can’t fight the feeling of emptiness.

I just can’t…

Things to remember...

1- Pay my Credit Card bills especially for the Canada trip...the conversion makes the figure goes WOW to me...beyond...far beyond my normal credit limit...

2- Pay my parking fees as well as the other bills to the management..sighed!

(-_-)

3- Pay 19 pound to my boss...for the Heathrow express+Bakerloo fare back then in London

4- Bring souvenirs for Marlena and Ayman and Kak Ati and Karen!! gosh..I always have short term memory on this...hop writing this down will work...

5- Not to eat more than usual...cut the food intake!

6- Go see Michael at True Fitness...he's been waiting for me for ages :P

7- Focus on work! I have a feeling I am off the track..but it is not actually..

just a stupid weird feeling ;)

Adesh signing off :)

Arriving Calgary (Chapter One)

As I woke up in the plane (after consuming series of sleeping pills) I saw the most unusual view. Land...from end to end covered with icy white snow. It almost like a paddy field look...a big barren waste I guess...If we reached a day earlier, we can actually fell and see the snow falls. I am so excited if I have the moment to feel and touch the snow myself :) I didn't look down too much as air planes makes me sick and worried to death during the journey.

And here we are arriving in Calgary Alberta..Canada. We went straight to the hotel..and unpacked our things...no..I did not..It is just a common phrase...I just lie there on a king size bed and admiring myself because I manage to fight the fear of airplane (for the time being)

At night..we have dinner at the hotel's restaurant. The food is moderately normal in my sense of taste...all finished and went for a stroll in the town :) Here's a few pictures of how Calgary looks like...nice place..nice town..nice people..

Kul-Heathrow-Calgary

Well..at last I am flying off to Heathrow...after series of nightmare and paranoid feelings, I manage to make it :)

I am flying off in business class....in style off course..and once u are in the business class area...everything seems different...stewards become more friendly..no..super friendly...the chair is soooooo nice...u can adjust it to almost 180 degree...and the food..unlike the bento box in economy, they are serving real food..u can actually choose the dish.

For me I had :

1-Sate for appetizer (the best sate i have ever tasted)

2-Sirloin steak for main course

3-I forgot what I had for desserts

4-And generous amounts of juices..hot drinks..cookies...

That was for dinner...For breakfast..I had mixed grill...strawberry yougurt drink...and breads...they are serving this all in white plate...not the plastic bento box :)

Well...I get the door gift which is the L'Occitane cosmetic bag...and also..I really love the green tea perfume they put in the toilet rack..it was so nice..probably Im gonna buy it sooner or later...or i will bodek the steward to actually give it for a souvenir on my back back to KL next week.

Arriving London

We took Heathrow express to go to London :) it was a tremendous and so overwhelming experience to me. The fare cost me like 20 pound which is..RM100+...erkk...so expensive..but..i dun mind as I am not sure when will I get this next oppurtunity.

London is so nice...we went to Leischester Square, Buckingham Palace, and walking around like crazy tourist taking pictures early in the mornin g as it was only at 8am...

I love the weather..chilly wind :) But it was so tiring as we do carry the laptop with us and walk all the way from Picadilly Circus to Victoria...we decided to take Voctoria rather than picadilly on our way back because it was so far to walk away that far.

London security..not bad...normal restriction...Then we rest in the Business Class lounge...so relaxing...time to catch for the Air Canada. Behold calgary, I will be coming to you shortly :D

Adesh signing out :)

Here are the pictures that we manage to snap during our really short and fast trip to London.

The Fire Drill..that hurts my feet

As I was going to pick up the phone and calling up the bank's cust service, suddenly there is a fire drill in Shell...the funny thing is..it is only for Shell staff..so other company which is working here for eg, Scomi..PTPTN...they are not involved in it.

I pick the wrong day to wear these high heels sandals. The sandal's mileage is less than 1km i guess...but the fire drill increase the mileage to almost 2km :(

The best part will be Fairuz is actually the mastermind of this all..He has been selected as a fire marshall there for yellow zone(which is my place)....cayalah dude!Looking at him in person..makes you belief he is a real fire marshall...born to be heroes...ehehhee...but looking back at his picture...erm..macam keje kontrak jek..ehehhe...jgn marah ye :D

Back in Shell...4 more days counting to Canada

I am back at Shell...doing preparation for Shell canada country rollout...I was excited yet terrified with this new experience...as I am gog to CALGARY, CANADA!!!

I will be taking off on 20th April and back around 29th April...I am right now quite scared of the upcoming event...I wished everything will be ok...and I will be doing a great day there....

Inspite of the excitement...I had this paranoid feeling towards this...WHY?

• I never like to travel by plane (thanks to National Georaphic-Air Crash Investigation)
• I haven't been anywhere with more than 12hours timezone differences...
• I never did this module in my life
• My Visa is not approved yet until today

Series of nightmares haunting me...luggage is empty...forgot to pack things up...Canadian Shell person come here...so there is no need for us to come..I was late at the airport...and the list goes on...

I hope I can fight all this...and hope claire bennet words "I walked through fire and didn't get burned"...comes true in my reality....

Adesh Signing out :D

Makan and Makan at my sis's fren's house at Desa Angakasa

I wished I had the pictures of foods on the table..let me name it..roast yummy chicken..potato gratin(my sis made it for this event)..bihun goreng...cinnamon bun..cakes..muffin..apple salad..it was so fulfilling and I end up with bloated stomach at the end of the nite...

The potluck party was held at my sis's fren house in Desa Angkasa Jln U-Thant. The place was soooo very nice..resort like and low rise condo unit..How suddenly I wish I will settled down in a place like that..very near to KL but it feels like you are in resort somewhere in Bali.

Back to the potluck story..actually...I was there by accident as I was lepaking wif my sis at her house..and she need to go to the potluck...It happened that I didn't bring the house key....And yes..I have to follow her...But it was really an enjoying treat :D I hope they can invite me next time...hehehehe...

Adesh signing out :D

Second plot..of anger and disappointment

Again...after a few ammendments made to the agreement..Andrew once again come to my apartment to hand me the agreement for me to sign it...
Me : Come in la andrew
Andrew : TQ...hmmm...owh..you simple la..so simple house...or u not finished transferring your things yet ah?
Aiyah Andrew, last time you also ask the same question and now you restating the fact that my house is simple? Is this kinda joke or what..but..i actually laugh at it when he ask me that question again...ahahaha...

Adesh signing out :D

First Plot..of humiliation and laughter

Me : Hey, can u come around 9pm to 10pm..
Andrew : (read with thick chinese accent) Aaa..ok2..I will come to ur unit around 9-10pm....I will ring the door bell..
Ting tong....I opened the door and there he stand with my agreement..he is my real estate agent....
Me : Come in laaaa....
Andrew : Ok2..
He slowly enter my apartment...
Andrew : Eiii..you haven't move in your stuff yet ah?
Me : Haiyoh Andrew..this is all I have la :P
Andrew : Ooo..sorry2..I thought you haven't move in yet...
Huhuhu...yes i know i dun have a lot of furniture yet..In the really big huge gigantic hall there lay only a 21 inch TV with TV bench...but a lot will come in later..months by months...i need a bit of patience to live in this simple house..but my room..it's perfect..I have everything that a master bedroom should have..name it..and I have it :) I love it so much...

Adesh signing out (",)