The sleep...

It has been a tiring tiring month so far...
With lack of sleep..merely 3 hours a day...
With the neck and arm pain...
With the workloads :(
Sighs...be strong..you wanted La Meridin after all isn't it Adeshi? :)

Adeshi mood : Mamai..sleepy
Bugsy mood : Binkies..I can play on the bed now!
Yoshi mood : CLS...

It's called Carpal Tunnel

Yes, that's why I can't blog that much nowadays :(
And I really have to limit my hands usage..which is 90% for work or else I'll get into trouble...

Work definition for me = Shell work, editing client pictures and shooting for clients :)

Adeshi mood : Sleepy, as I woke up early to finish up some work
Bugsy mood : Sleepy as well
Yoshi mood : S;eepy..exhausted

Freeze Period

For the time being...I might not be able to blog...
I will be back..soon..in June :)

Adeshi, Bugsy and Yoshi minta maaf :D

To the left..to the left

It has been soo long since my last update here...

It has been a very hectic week..too many stuff on my plate..and it stays there forever and ever...

And not to forget..weddings..weddings..weddings...post editing etc

It was a slow day today...A left lane day...why? I drive on the left lane rather than the right lane a.k.a Fast Lane.

The reason being is...I was highly excited listening to the addictive Adam Lambert songs..AI version or studio..I love it both...

The best will be his rendition of MJ Black & White and Mad World :)

I will be writing about my past few weeks activities soon (with pictures too!) as it was really the things that I need to share and remember and some of it is..
- Cukur Jambul Alya
- Encounter with Elephants
- Feeding the Deers
- Petting the bears
- Teasing the ostrich
- Holding the sugar glider and hedgehog
- Weddings
- Broga again :)

In all..my weekends are fully booked from April up until end of May!!!

Adeshi Mood : stuffy inside and outside?
Bugsy Mood : I am in need of a GF...
Yoshi Mood : More with Widey

Nasi Kerabu Guy did it again...

He is doing his part..being the Nasi Kerabu Guy...
It's part of the role!
Buying for everybody in the office...

There goes my diet again!!

Adeshi mood : Satisfaction from yesterday fulfillment and achievement...and yes..it was a looong and tiring day!
Bugsy mood : Longign for a partner :(
Yoshi mood : Ayu's wedding!

Another one :) title - The Real You!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you ---> wink wink! flattered!

2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties ---> Yes..I need to remind myself about this..life is not a parteeee!

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm--->I thought I wore unmatching shoes :)

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? ----> err..I'll work on this soon :( no more baby talk and teddy bear voices? Err..I am not ready to leave it all behind yet!!

5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time. ---> LOL..real doll..too sweet?

And I can't wait to go to see the elephants tomorrow :)
I feel satisfied with whatever I did today...such a productive day for me! Tiring but enjoyable...
I am such a good planner :)

Adeshi mood : My left feet sometimes crammed :( please, not tomorrow!
Bugsy mood : Filthy cage..I know tomorrow right?
Yoshi mood : Where is my wise lens? It's ok..tomorrow then!

Another Personality Test :)

Took it here - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

And the verdict is...(drumrolls please!)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: (this is a LIEEEE)
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Most of it somehow reflects my personality...if not all..there is tonnes of quizzes here as well :D http://www.quizbox.com/personality

Adeshi Mood : No mood..looking for something new..fresh..elephants perhaps?
Bugsy Mood : Lalalala
Yoshi Mood : Woweee..animal kingdom tomorrow!!

Get well soon...

To Mr Wise Man...To any Mr in the world..hope your family will recover and things will get better soon...

For those who just met with an accident, who just admitted to hospital...and who just fell ill...Get well soon...

My well wishes to all...

Adeshi mood : Gloomy...
Bugsy mood : Binkies!
Yoshi mood : Hey, I am in Nomad!

To be or not to be Part II

It's almost there...
Finally I have found the answers...not on where I should be in...
But on why do I feel hesitate with whatever decision that I will make...

I didn't realize, being me, I tend to look on things in various angle..and in this case...too many angles...and so far I have the answer to 4 of the angles...

I have 4 reason on why it is hard for me to make a decision...
With 4 diff perspective...
and each comes with a 'post mortem' , backup plans and worst case scenarios...

I never thought my brain is THIS complicated :)

And with better understanding of myself, I should be able to make a decision..soon..very very soon..someone might be surprised on my decision!

Hey..I can sing!!! LOL

Adeshi mood : I can sing!
Bugsy mood : I miss u...pet me
Yoshi mood : zzzzzzzzz

The RTG day...

RTG means Return to Green meeting...where I need to indicate on what need to be done...solutions or whatever crap to make the test execution finish on time...

That's what Return to Green Meeting is about...

Coincidentally...my morning drive from Damansara Heights to Bangsar was smooth...no red lights...all Green...is it trying to tell me something..i wonder back then...and yes..the RTG went smooth as well...Or the traffic lights can read my mind..like - adesh is here...return to green...

But there is a few TL turning yellow, but being me I know how to handle with speed in situation like this :) I am a good driver..yes..I crashed into a pajero 2 years ago..wreck my car..whose name is Cicak (the other Cicak is not my car)...who end up in a workshop (not BAM workshop) for a month..broke the engine..radiator all destroyed! But that was back then..I am better now..except that..

Even that, I still can't control my nerve and temperamental attitude while driving :P still working on it..deep breath and stuff..but sometimes..when I am mad about something...I will speed up and speed up..like there is no tomorrow :( bad attitude...

And hopefully my decision is going on smooth as well...

I am so ready to meet up my other boss...all dressed up..skirt and shirt tucked in..with belt...it's only on rare occasion I wear something sensible like this :D it feels good though..should get more skirts for myself!

Adeshi mood : Blurry
Bugsy mood : Missing me :)
Yoshi mood : The Big Day is almost here! (not mine)

A HOT and satisfying weekend

I thought it was only me that is suffering from the heat attack...

After reading a few of my frens blogs...i am not alone :)

I thought my body have some biological issues...sweating all day all night...

Relief..but it was such a HOT weekend...and satisfying for me..spending quality time alone with myself...I should do this more often...It is such a cure to my stress! I feel revive and some part of me has been awaken again!!

Adeshi mood : happy :) lots achieved during the weekend...thats what I call quality time..but worried about Bugsy
Bugsy mood : I am acting weird...
Yoshi mood : zzzzzzzzzzzzz

To be or not to be...

Here I am..standing in the middle of a crossroad... Should I head..north? Should I head south (east and west is never an option)...

Funny how people behave...
we chase on our dream...
we believe on our vision...
we trust our path...
When the doors open itself...
we hesitate...
we have second thought...
as if it is something that we never ever thought of having...
And here I am..
looking at the open door, and my feet is halfway in...

Funny how people behave...
we never thought of pursuing something...
we never dream of being someone trustworthy...
we never imagine our life will be in that situation...
and we always hope...
we can leave it all behind and start a new life...
And here I am...
looking at the other door...
closed for me...
and part of me feel sad...
feel like I should be in...
but..if I knock...
surely someone will answer with open hands...

Funny how people react to choices...
funny how people hate choices...
funny how people hate when they couldn't make their own choices...
funny how people regret in their own choice...
funny how indecisive people be even when the other door is closed...
Even when the choice has been made by others...

To keep my life going, I always have my principal.
I always have my mission..to keep me motivated..it's not just on my famous 'TO-DO-LIST'..but it's more like faith...if I lose it..only God knows what I would become... And I have tonnes to say about North and South. Both have their pros and cons...and I can simply list 1001 reason for each of them...making it harder for me to decide...
okok..this is about whether I should stay in SAP functional team..the team that I am dreaming of becoming one of them...or the nostalgic testing where I sacrifice myself to work for them without complaints (okok..this is a lie :)) just to get the work done..

Testing faith that I live by everyday...
A story that keep my pride up everyday - I think it's Hersey's US ( I might be wrong but this is a true story). They have inventory system for their stocks. And a client requested an amount of purchase but the system shows there is none in stock. In reality there are tonnes and tonnes in the warehouse...

Can u imagine how much money have they lose by having a system failure? How many deals have they missed? And if only the system was tested...proven and tested, can u imagine how much profit would they make? And I am proud to be a system breaker like I used to do...I never label myself as a tester...but a system QA...and for QA..only people with integrity can do it..who knows what an when to critic...with all this principles in mind...

I know I am bringing great value to the company, to the client..it's not just executing test...executing test...these are the greater and hidden value that we are blind to see... And still...
why why people feels it's 2nd class?
Please don't...I never felt like that..I never hate testing...it's just I love solving people problems...and that's what makes me more keen on SAP functional...

And these dilemma comes in 'handy' after a satisfying meeting yesterday that makes me feel something that I never felt before..satisfaction..great satisfaction!

Faith on SAP Functional From Day 1 learning and knowing SAP..
This is all what I am dreaming for..being the solution solver..being the decision maker..being the person who have the power to control..who projects their ideas..who people look up to...It's hard work..real hard work..been there...done that...
knowing people will depend on the system being designed by me..knowing it's helping their everyday lives...knowing it will do great benefit to them...it really makes me feel good about myself!

So..this is my faith..my motivation..it's not on the work itself..

I have general motivation..not just finishing bundle J in time or running 1000 test in 1 day..it's more than that to life...and I will never be able to be in this role if I didn't have these faith in me...as long as the faith is there..and be reminded to myself..I will never give up..and try to cope..to handle..or learn to adapt suffering..and that's just how I work biologically...

I think this is one of the most emotional post I have ever wrote (exclusion on anything related to my mum)..as I need to decide between these 2 choices..I have reasons for each of it...but I think what I need to do is..A reason from each of them..on what value can I bring to the team, why I should choose them, being me...there is always a general faith inside of me..and if their answers met the faith for the day..then I will definitely can decide..pretty easily!
So far, both of them doesn't met my faith :) so far... but I know one will do...soon


Adeshi mood : Tired..neck pain...confused as ever
Bugsy mood : sleepy..zzzz
Yoshi mood : No wide lens? its ok :D