Last team meeting for a friend of mine...

The mail wrote :

Agenda for Team Meeting:

1. Project Updates
2. Upcoming Project Highlights
3. Testing News
4. Birthdays and Farewell to team member
5. Cakes & Food session (the most FUN part of all) hehehe...

It's asri's last day today in Shell Testing Services and also Arinso Malaysia...will continue his career pursuit in Accenture ;)

Wishing you a very good luck...and hope it will be fun working there.
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Me and my brand new donut

Yes…good news…happy thing to hear...Donut got a new job offer from VADS. Yeay!!!
At last all my prayer answered. I really hope he can move on to a new job..better opportunities job
I hope he will do well there..impress everyone there…make friends with everybody…
And better off..earn extra more
I love you my sweet sugar Donut.

XoXo xoxo xOxO

Time Table

I am very delightful...Shell Canada projects is coming to an end. But yet it’s not for long, another projects awaits me :P well..have to work harder to prove myself. I always feel that I am not good enough…Damn I should work harder…and harder…

I sacrifice a lot for this projects…especially my quality time with donut, my sisters and even myself.

Daily routine during projects-

10:00 am – woke up from bed

11:00 am – already arrived at workplace

11:00 pm – went home

12:00 pm – sleep

What a boring life I have during last projects!!! Now..coming to an end I have mooore ample time.

Daily routine when project ended-

9:00 am – woke up ( dunno how but I get up earlier when I am not so stressful ) 10:00 am until 1:00 pm – Martha stewart + PS2

2:00 pm – arrived nicely in Shell

9:50 pm – hasty to get back home

Hihi…I really have fun during end of project time..still get the allowances and yet not doing anything ‘FANCY’ at workplace.

syu and me chilling out at the office

the cute clip

even cuter on my nose...hahaha

(^_^)

Downloading...and downstream

Suddenly I got this cool download website-Multiply. Thanks to Syu ;)

Downloaded and listening to Aqua-Turn Back Time…memories recalls..happy..and bitter.
‘If only I could turn back time…If only I could…’
Everybody would have at least once that they can turn back the time, to correct problem change history, erase bad memory and to name a few.
What I wanted most is…to spend time with my mom
Out of nowhere I feel the emptiness inside me…it’s not that I miss her before..I have always miss her every single seconds of my life…but I keep my head centered back again…

Tonight..I feel different. I somehow realize something that I knew and makes me feel very very very extremely sad. I realize that I can never ever again in my life see my mom L and never be able to talk to her, feel the tenderness of her touch, eat her cooking, laughing at her jokes, being angry of her rules, seeing her lying watching soaps on TV(this is the favorite pose I like her the most), watching her after her prayer..after she bathes…her smell of powder, her daily face routine of Shiseido, putting on her jewelry, changing and picking up clothes before we go anywhere especially kenduri, hearing the sound of her Quran recital, sound of her coughing…sneeze…I can’t hear any of that..and even worse it’s more than I have listed here.

How I wish everything is different. How I wish I can change everything. How I wish my wish came true.

A promise that I have made to myself when my mom in ICU…if God save her I will stay at my hometown. Not working and taking of her 24/7. I don’t mind about not getting a fancy job…nor getting a soul mate whatsoever. I just want to spend my lifetime taking care and loving her without exceptions.

And somehow…deep down I can feel she knows and and wish that those things will never happen to me…she always wanted me to be a successful woman. With happy life and family and job. I can feel she made the sacrifice of letting me be who am I right now.

I would rather…taking care of her for the rest of my life…because I love her so much. Three years has passed and still, I can’t fight the feeling of emptiness.

I just can’t…