TERGIGIT LIDAH...SAKIT..MAYBE THE FEELING IS WORSE!!!

OR..DOES IT REPRESENT SOMETHING EVEN MORE TERRIBLE THAN WORSE??

Tadi...tergigit lidah..ouch...thought that it is a normal cut..but..tengok2 kat cermin dalam lif (nasib baik sempat close the door before orang berlari2 nak masuk)...teruknye...bengkak and kaler hitam seperti lebam :( sighs...

I guess today is really not a lucky day for me...semua benda tak menjadik...very bad luck...when I am driving..I feel something bothering me...and I did redundant work last nite until 3 a.m...And I can't concentrate during the training...and yes..the tergigit lidah thing !

But I guess the most terrible of all is what happen during this exact date in 2004...Four years ago...it's 27th May 2004 and everything went wrong that day...terribly wrong..worst day of my life ever :( undeniably sad...

Well...I guess people hardly knows this but 4 years ago..on this exact date and almost the exact time..my mother passed away because of heart attack in Hospital Ipoh...No sign..no warning...She left us without signs :( She neither sick nor suffering from heart desease...but yes...Her time has come to an end...And part of me had come to an end..together with her memory..

I could never forget her...even in my pinkest of health or my worst pf time...I will always love her unconditionally...She always appeared in my dreams...Hugging and kissing me...Telling me advice...which somehow relates to my current situations...And in my dreams..she is not alive...as people will assumed she is...But in all my dreams somehow she's dead...but allowed to visit us on ad-hoc basis which neither both of us knowing. WHne she's given the chance...she will come...And at the end of the dreams she will wave goodbye to me as her time has ended...she has to go... :(

And I remember waking up from my dream...Crying...alone...without mummy :(

Let's sedekahkan Al-Fatihah pade Almarhumah Robiah bt. Othman..semoga rohnye dikalagan orang yang beriman...Amin :)

I miss u mak..I love u mak...