Working From Home

I am working from home today...It's nice since I have the comfort since now I am suffering from menstrual pain :( Despite the comfort...the stomach is not helping me at all..and the workload? Same as usual...except that I don't have to meet people that I don't get along very well...

Mood : sakit perut la...dah 2 biji ponstan telan..still tak ok...should I go for the 3rd one?

Rabbit stories that makes my soul revived!

Please read this - http://www.rabbitadoption.org/pops.html

Mood : Missing mine

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR NEW BORN DAUGHTER!!!

For the new parents - Rifqan Asri and Anis...
Congratulations!!!

You have been blessed with a lovely baby girl - Alya Arianna (I'm not sure on the spelling)

Alya will definitely brings joy and happiness to both of you...Hope both of you will be a good parents!!

Mood : malas keje yang teramat!

My Findings on the Internet

It is not surprising how poor my knowledge is in the business related topics. When I read all those bombastic words and terms in one of the website, it makes my head spins, but not in the negative way...in a positive way...or in other word, mind stimulating!

This is the part that caught my attention while flipping through the content of something called Corporate Culture - Yes, it is for CDP...hihi :

LOSING ORGANIZATION - 9 signs
1- Fuzzy Vision
2- Lack of Leadership Skills
3- Discouraging Culture
4- High Bureaucracy
5- Lack of Initiative
6- Poor Vertical Communication (If it's not because of SPNG, I wouldn't know that 'Vertical' is used widely in business terms :P...I thought it's only for photographs!)
7- Poor Cross-functional Collaboration (This one sounds like one of my meetings :P)
8- Poor TEAMWORK
9- Poor Idea and Knowledge Management

And sorry to say this...no offense to anybody..but I somehow feels that the symptoms is already here...here I mean here...huhuhu....

Mood : Sleepy...worried (CDP is only 70%)

WHAT A COINCIDENCE!

After writing yesterday blog about being true to myself in workplace...I watch Oprah for a while while waiting for my taxi.

The topic is about Women at work. And the person that she's interviewing has almost the same characteristic as mine.

She's a 'pleaser' at workplace...Do whatever people ask (even if it's changing her personality) just to please the boss...to get increment..to get better position...to get recognition...And..after 8 years...She's not appreciated...she became frustrated...she had breakdown...(I am not there yet...trust me..even 2 years is waaaaay too long for me...

She said, she's a good actor...she acts everyday..until she hates herself..she can never remember her real self anymore..uuh..scary...

After those blablabla...then she is now opening her own shop. Living happily with the family and she can be true to herself.

Well..most of the women in this show..quit. They take the risk and fortunately it works. Hmm...I am thinking...the clock is ticking...My head is spinning...

Time for a change? Should I explore the world and leave this all behind?

Mood : Shock, rational, logic, intuitive

Me or not me?

People always thought that I am a sweet talker, soft spoken etc...hihi...WRONG!
People always thought that I changed because of my environment...WRONG!

This is the TRUTH...

I try to be a sweet talker etc and sometimes put an effort to act like one...in other word..diplomatic
I tried and it works...but until the point that I hate myself doing that..or when I feel too much acting makes me sick...then came my real self.

I am not saying I am a bad mouth or anything..no..but usually I talk on what I want to...no matter how hard it is on the other side..I have practiced this 'free talk' since young until I graduate...And this explains why I have less friends but a very true friend indeed where we still stick until now...Boys hate me in high school..saying that I am stubborn...well..usually the other girls just follow their ideas opinions etc...aha..not for me and my buddies (8 of us)...until they call us Geng gagak hitam. People who disagree with them is their enemy...

But working life forced me to be someone that I don't. I tend to compromise (a good thing but too much is sickening), I tend to be queit and do whatever the boss says...etc etc...

Now, I feel like I should take off the mask..and let the world face the real me...I know, I might get warned here and there(It happens before)...but...I don't care...I am revealing myself bit by bit as I think I have low confidence in being the real me...(usually all the thoughts..stay inside)

Thinking about the faces that I am gonna see at work..makes me wants to puke...eeeuuuwww...another day facing the nutheads...

Mood : Angry, Mad, Lazy, Lazy, lazy...can't wait to go back

Waiting and hoping and praying...

I am praying hard...

I have put 220% hope...

I am waiting for a happy ending....

Dreams

I hope my dream last nite came true...

I hope everything will be ok...

I can't concentrate..on anything except one thing...only that matters now...

I am dragging myself everyday..to pay the bills...

U know, I can live in the village and not work..and get married and have kids..and chilling all day long...

But that's not the life I intended to live (I think)...

I like to life the live that I am living now except that I don't have to work..having all the luxury that I have right now (Perhaps more?)

I know that is too much to ask...

For now I only pray and ask for one thing...and I hope my prayer will be answered...

Mood : worried 

Unpleasant Detour

Again...
I made the unpleasant detour...
I hope this time it will be fine...
I hope everything will going on smoothly from this moment on...

Mood : Worried, sad, no mood for work, brain freeze

Oh ya, btw I am writing this in the office :P

10, 000 lies that leads to frustration!

I am freaking mad!  Lies and lies and lies and more lies??  That is why I love rabbits, they never lied (maybe because they can't talk? :P)

I have 3 vet clinics that I used to go...

From 3 clinics only 2 says it is good to give green veggies...

From 3 clinics only 1 have rabbit specialist...

And from that 1 specialist comes the phrase that I can never forget "No..rabbits can't eat green veggies until they are at least 6 months old!"

And that really explains why..why..and why...

My babies...my babies...:(

With this statement, I can only say only 1 vet is countable!  

Rabbit is considered exotic pets in Malaysia, hence not many vets are knowledgeable about rabbits :(

Mood : Frustration, hate, sad, indigestible, did i mention sad?

My Dutchy the duchess

Isn't she adorable? She? I thought I have 2 bucks? Now I have 1 buck 1 doe?  Well,  being an amateur rabbit owner, I do make mistakes on determining their gender.  Last weekend, while my rabbits hanging around in the living hall with me,  suddenly bugs is acting strange...He chase baby dutchy non-stop.  Looking at this situation, I suddenly thought that dutchy might be a doe instead! Then..Bugs bite her neck and...aijoor...then I scream and put dutchy into the cage.  Hmm, I think it's a gurl!  So, their cages have ben separated and each got smaller space!  

And I think, I am gonna buy another 2 rabbit, bucks and does as I htae seeing rabbit living alone in the cage since now they have been separated.  Huhu..I hope I can handle 4 rabbits at 1 time!

Mood : Lazy for work...up for something!

Roger lost to Nadal :(

He played his best...

He tried his best...

But LUCK is not on his side...

FATE doesn't have his name written on it...

It's hard for him :( and I felt for it! 

Maybe next year's Australian Open Roger!

runner up..not good

If it's me, I dunno whether I can be firends with the rival that took my crown away :(

Sad Moment :((

Mood : Sad, down, but looking forward for karaoke-ing this evening with fellow friends.  Thanks Aby for the treat!