Nasi Kerabu Guy did it again...

He is doing his part..being the Nasi Kerabu Guy...
It's part of the role!
Buying for everybody in the office...

There goes my diet again!!

Adeshi mood : Satisfaction from yesterday fulfillment and achievement...and yes..it was a looong and tiring day!
Bugsy mood : Longign for a partner :(
Yoshi mood : Ayu's wedding!

Another one :) title - The Real You!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you ---> wink wink! flattered!

2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties ---> Yes..I need to remind myself about this..life is not a parteeee!

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm--->I thought I wore unmatching shoes :)

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? ----> err..I'll work on this soon :( no more baby talk and teddy bear voices? Err..I am not ready to leave it all behind yet!!

5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time. ---> LOL..real doll..too sweet?

And I can't wait to go to see the elephants tomorrow :)
I feel satisfied with whatever I did today...such a productive day for me! Tiring but enjoyable...
I am such a good planner :)

Adeshi mood : My left feet sometimes crammed :( please, not tomorrow!
Bugsy mood : Filthy cage..I know tomorrow right?
Yoshi mood : Where is my wise lens? It's ok..tomorrow then!

Another Personality Test :)

Took it here - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

And the verdict is...(drumrolls please!)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: (this is a LIEEEE)
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Most of it somehow reflects my personality...if not all..there is tonnes of quizzes here as well :D http://www.quizbox.com/personality

Adeshi Mood : No mood..looking for something new..fresh..elephants perhaps?
Bugsy Mood : Lalalala
Yoshi Mood : Woweee..animal kingdom tomorrow!!

Get well soon...

To Mr Wise Man...To any Mr in the world..hope your family will recover and things will get better soon...

For those who just met with an accident, who just admitted to hospital...and who just fell ill...Get well soon...

My well wishes to all...

Adeshi mood : Gloomy...
Bugsy mood : Binkies!
Yoshi mood : Hey, I am in Nomad!

To be or not to be Part II

It's almost there...
Finally I have found the answers...not on where I should be in...
But on why do I feel hesitate with whatever decision that I will make...

I didn't realize, being me, I tend to look on things in various angle..and in this case...too many angles...and so far I have the answer to 4 of the angles...

I have 4 reason on why it is hard for me to make a decision...
With 4 diff perspective...
and each comes with a 'post mortem' , backup plans and worst case scenarios...

I never thought my brain is THIS complicated :)

And with better understanding of myself, I should be able to make a decision..soon..very very soon..someone might be surprised on my decision!

Hey..I can sing!!! LOL

Adeshi mood : I can sing!
Bugsy mood : I miss u...pet me
Yoshi mood : zzzzzzzzz

The RTG day...

RTG means Return to Green meeting...where I need to indicate on what need to be done...solutions or whatever crap to make the test execution finish on time...

That's what Return to Green Meeting is about...

Coincidentally...my morning drive from Damansara Heights to Bangsar was smooth...no red lights...all Green...is it trying to tell me something..i wonder back then...and yes..the RTG went smooth as well...Or the traffic lights can read my mind..like - adesh is here...return to green...

But there is a few TL turning yellow, but being me I know how to handle with speed in situation like this :) I am a good driver..yes..I crashed into a pajero 2 years ago..wreck my car..whose name is Cicak (the other Cicak is not my car)...who end up in a workshop (not BAM workshop) for a month..broke the engine..radiator all destroyed! But that was back then..I am better now..except that..

Even that, I still can't control my nerve and temperamental attitude while driving :P still working on it..deep breath and stuff..but sometimes..when I am mad about something...I will speed up and speed up..like there is no tomorrow :( bad attitude...

And hopefully my decision is going on smooth as well...

I am so ready to meet up my other boss...all dressed up..skirt and shirt tucked in..with belt...it's only on rare occasion I wear something sensible like this :D it feels good though..should get more skirts for myself!

Adeshi mood : Blurry
Bugsy mood : Missing me :)
Yoshi mood : The Big Day is almost here! (not mine)

A HOT and satisfying weekend

I thought it was only me that is suffering from the heat attack...

After reading a few of my frens blogs...i am not alone :)

I thought my body have some biological issues...sweating all day all night...

Relief..but it was such a HOT weekend...and satisfying for me..spending quality time alone with myself...I should do this more often...It is such a cure to my stress! I feel revive and some part of me has been awaken again!!

Adeshi mood : happy :) lots achieved during the weekend...thats what I call quality time..but worried about Bugsy
Bugsy mood : I am acting weird...
Yoshi mood : zzzzzzzzzzzzz

To be or not to be...

Here I am..standing in the middle of a crossroad... Should I head..north? Should I head south (east and west is never an option)...

Funny how people behave...
we chase on our dream...
we believe on our vision...
we trust our path...
When the doors open itself...
we hesitate...
we have second thought...
as if it is something that we never ever thought of having...
And here I am..
looking at the open door, and my feet is halfway in...

Funny how people behave...
we never thought of pursuing something...
we never dream of being someone trustworthy...
we never imagine our life will be in that situation...
and we always hope...
we can leave it all behind and start a new life...
And here I am...
looking at the other door...
closed for me...
and part of me feel sad...
feel like I should be in...
but..if I knock...
surely someone will answer with open hands...

Funny how people react to choices...
funny how people hate choices...
funny how people hate when they couldn't make their own choices...
funny how people regret in their own choice...
funny how indecisive people be even when the other door is closed...
Even when the choice has been made by others...

To keep my life going, I always have my principal.
I always have my mission..to keep me motivated..it's not just on my famous 'TO-DO-LIST'..but it's more like faith...if I lose it..only God knows what I would become... And I have tonnes to say about North and South. Both have their pros and cons...and I can simply list 1001 reason for each of them...making it harder for me to decide...
okok..this is about whether I should stay in SAP functional team..the team that I am dreaming of becoming one of them...or the nostalgic testing where I sacrifice myself to work for them without complaints (okok..this is a lie :)) just to get the work done..

Testing faith that I live by everyday...
A story that keep my pride up everyday - I think it's Hersey's US ( I might be wrong but this is a true story). They have inventory system for their stocks. And a client requested an amount of purchase but the system shows there is none in stock. In reality there are tonnes and tonnes in the warehouse...

Can u imagine how much money have they lose by having a system failure? How many deals have they missed? And if only the system was tested...proven and tested, can u imagine how much profit would they make? And I am proud to be a system breaker like I used to do...I never label myself as a tester...but a system QA...and for QA..only people with integrity can do it..who knows what an when to critic...with all this principles in mind...

I know I am bringing great value to the company, to the client..it's not just executing test...executing test...these are the greater and hidden value that we are blind to see... And still...
why why people feels it's 2nd class?
Please don't...I never felt like that..I never hate testing...it's just I love solving people problems...and that's what makes me more keen on SAP functional...

And these dilemma comes in 'handy' after a satisfying meeting yesterday that makes me feel something that I never felt before..satisfaction..great satisfaction!

Faith on SAP Functional From Day 1 learning and knowing SAP..
This is all what I am dreaming for..being the solution solver..being the decision maker..being the person who have the power to control..who projects their ideas..who people look up to...It's hard work..real hard work..been there...done that...
knowing people will depend on the system being designed by me..knowing it's helping their everyday lives...knowing it will do great benefit to them...it really makes me feel good about myself!

So..this is my faith..my motivation..it's not on the work itself..

I have general motivation..not just finishing bundle J in time or running 1000 test in 1 day..it's more than that to life...and I will never be able to be in this role if I didn't have these faith in me...as long as the faith is there..and be reminded to myself..I will never give up..and try to cope..to handle..or learn to adapt suffering..and that's just how I work biologically...

I think this is one of the most emotional post I have ever wrote (exclusion on anything related to my mum)..as I need to decide between these 2 choices..I have reasons for each of it...but I think what I need to do is..A reason from each of them..on what value can I bring to the team, why I should choose them, being me...there is always a general faith inside of me..and if their answers met the faith for the day..then I will definitely can decide..pretty easily!
So far, both of them doesn't met my faith :) so far... but I know one will do...soon


Adeshi mood : Tired..neck pain...confused as ever
Bugsy mood : sleepy..zzzz
Yoshi mood : No wide lens? its ok :D

It's gonna be a LOOOOONG day at work...

He is here...
He is back...
Nothing is pleasant when he's back (except that work becomes more efficient)
And I am gonna be under a lot of pressure...
I have to answer all his funny and weird questions...
The worst part is...
No one to back me up...

No Wise Man...nor Nasi Kerabu Man :(


And..when I thought this is the end of the road for me...
There is still more coming...


Thanks to my BAM Workshop article...Ironically, I have my part in the Dual Maintenance phase :( How I wish all this would end soon...


Thoughts - - - Feet on the white sand of an island..with blue translucent sea...fisherman's boat parked at the shore...birds chirping..morning breeze kisses my face and hair...without any problems...


Adeshi Mood : Struggling to prepare myself for a morning meeting with THE CICAK
Bugsy Mood : Groomer has it
Yoshi Mood : Another 50 more on the 1st shoot, and 200 more on the wedding shoot...huhu...

Reluctant..Refusing

Again..as any other weekdays...
I feel very reluctant to work..and refuse to put my mind on work...

Nothing new!

Is there anything that I can do to fulfill my wish?

What do I work for?
Of course..food..shelter..clothes..

Again..what do I work for? (In reality)
To buy camrea gadgets..nice clothes..nice food..car...house..furnitures..bags...shoes...etc

Do they make me happy? Yes of course..but do work makes me a happy person? No it doesn't!

Seems like I can't choose...I have to take it all :( What does all the stuff mean to me if I am not happy being myself? What can I do? I can't stop my heart desire nor stop working...what should I do?

Adeshi Mood : In Denial
Bugsy Mood : Probably sleeping :D
Yoshi Mood : Pictures still pending for JPEG conversion!

Stale weekend story

Azel and me...

This week I have a difficulty focusing in whatever I do..be it work..play...photo editing..eating...blogging..you name it..i can't focus on anything :(
I miss our Karaoke session on Tuesday morning as my migraine came to visit me :( And I feel like a loser this whole week...I think this is what people call depression...I am so stressed and frustrated about everything! And it was hard to convert my RAW to JPEG this time..thanks to my depression level :(...so only have few picas..will try to upload more as I have some nice shots :D of Broga!

Even yesterday, when I saw my 'TO DO LIST', I feel like crying and when I speak, I confused people a lot...so my blog is not updated almost a week! But I have tonnes to tell tonnes to share...
Ok..let me tell you about my last weekend activity..It was a action packed weekend as usual...but what interest me the most is our morning hike to Bukit Broga Semenyih :) At first, I was cursing all the way up as I feel so tired...but once I was up there..it's worth it and there will be a second or third or fourth trip..I am very positive! And as usual, being Martha wannabe, I brought 2 types of sandwich for everybody!

Itenary :

The fellowship - Adesh, Azel, Alan and Donat
The weapon (in above sequence) - Canon 350D, Canon 400D X 3
Woke up & Shower - 5:00 am (come to think abt it again, I don't think shower is necessary that morning
Embarks the journey - 5:30 am
Tepi ladang kelapa sawit - 6:30am
Start hiking - 6:45am

And we took more than an hour to reach the peak since one of our friend gets easily tired..I thought I was the weakest link :p

There was a few pit stops along the way...during the pitstop this is what happening :
Old chinese couple passing by : almost 5
Favourite phrase : Berdiri..Jangan duduk (One of the uncle scold me kaw2..ask me not to sit down while taking my breath.and that uncle...using a tongkat!!! very old)
Favourite story : When Azel in FRIM, hiking their way up, she asked one old chinese uncle, how far is the canopy...and the uncle replies 'Kalau makan banyak...jauuuhh...kalau makan sikit...dekaaat'...so offensive and funny :D
Favourite scene : Me sliding down the path of Bukit Broga when going down :D
Most awaited moment : someone is falling down funnily without hurting themselves (this is my cruel plan..as usual)
Frequently used phrase by Azel : Lembu (she imagine if there is cows..it would be more more nicer) and also..sikit lagi nak sampai...
Frequently used phrase by Alan : Adoi (the always tired one)
Frequently used phrase by Donat : Chim chim (which refers to me - thats what he call me sometimes besides from Chubby) cos I am always here and there and slipping and sliding..like a wild cat
Frequently used phrase by Me : Sandwich? (cos I want them to empty the container!)

Photo taken from the first peak..

After our tiring hike..we reach the 1st peak..it was breathtaking..it seems higher that we have ever climb...very nice view..very nice grassy hill..and 2nd peak is nicer and you can photograph the 1st peak from above and you will look like you are on top of the world..and thats what I feel...except it's getting hotter and hotter even if it's just 9++am...

We climb down..or slide down for me...hungry hungry...

Taken from 2nd peak..looking down at 1st peak

Went to Restoran Yus...then me and Donat went back to the kelape sawit area as just opposite it, there is a Rabbit Farmland..(but here they sell rabbit meat as well :(- sighs..whyyyy) tonnes of rabbit...cute cute little creature! And I've been forced to make friends with the donkey that apparently follows my every footsteps and pace...I was scareddddddd :( he follows me here and there...when i try to run..he run as well :( huhuhuhuhu...

The mebbits..4/200?

Adeshi mood : ready for cukur jambul shoot
Bugsy mood : I want a lop ear gigirl :D
Yoshi mood : My sensor feels like brand new after the service @ canon yesterday!!

Roger lost again :( - ATP Miami Sony Ericcson

http://tennis.com/features/general/features.aspx?id=169724

Major meltdown...The old him is back..the hot tempered Federer...

He smashed his racket!!!! Oh no...I was watching the rerun and decided not to after looking at this news :( I just couldn't bear seeing him like that...RF RF

People under a huge amount of stress tend to show their true colours...

And this synchronizes with whatever I feel right now :(

If Roger is down..I feel it :( and coincidentally...it comes around the same time as mine...

Nevertheless..(I know some of you are laughing at me reading this)..Roger Federer will always be my number 1..and Nadal number 2...

Mission - A picture next to Federer!!!!

Adeshi Mood : Frustrated...longing

Bugsy mood : Sleepy

Yoshi mood : Broga broga broga...

Hello World

Ever noticed that every programming language will use 'Hello World' phrase for the first display session? So cliche..and I don't know why I am talking about this..it's just came to my mind!

I am alone at home...it's 11pm Friday nite..nothing to do as there is too much to do..ahah? Basically..too much to do leads to nothing to do due to laziness...and today I had a crazy day at the office..meetings (And I thought it's Good Friday hol in UK..but it's next week!) And I only starts work at 630pm :( with tonnes of deliverable...

And my dearest 2 guys Nasi Kerabu Guy and Chaiwalla a.k.a Wise Man - wonder why Chaiwalla is wise? really contradicts!) is not here in the office. I have an all girls room..which is ok..I can adjust my bra anytime I want :P or scratched my back freely :P (as if i didn't do it before :P) but the downside of side..less fun :( real less...and being typical women (ooopss...sorry..sorry...no offense) they are hardworking! Really hardworking people..and I am more on the masculine side when it comes to work...shortcuts..lazy..offensive..ignorant :) so it is really really bored..urgghhh

Oh..Nasi Kerabu Guy had a slip disc..no..nothing about compact disc..it's the backbone shifted or sprained or something..pretty bad..will only comes to work on 20th April. And yes, my partner in crime is no longer there..and had to work with a temp replacement Dimple Lady. No more undercover work for both of us...all overcover work now :P And Wise Man...being the teacher's pet to our Director has been summoned (LOL) to help the Lady Boss...but I know..he loves leaving the project.it gave him an excess baggage of fat as we always heart our heart out when the tension level rises.

My favorite wedges...Oh..I have such a looong middle toe? (is that what they name it?)

I bought a new sandal as my old wedges's hook was broken :( dammit...I hate spending on something unexpected but at least..I am enjoying my new sandals :D Anybody know where can I fix the hook or get a replacement? I reallly love it as Donat bought it for me :( and he handpicked those for me as welll..and I am into Red sandals nowadays :D

Oh..one of the topic in the Testing meeting that caught my interest..the Kingdomality test...most of my peers get either White Knight - Helpers or Black Knight - Challenger(..(half of the population)...And I feel a little bit proud as in my group (Explorer) there is only 8 people (we are the creative people who can plan effectively and creatively to meet the goal) and again..there is only 4 DISCOVER among the whole population of 101 people :) Too many creative people in Testing can create chaotic scene..we know how to find a way for something..even the bad way :)...and probably those walls are not white or blue anymore..I love maroon office wall for a change...and stained glass..not just frosted..and nice curtain..not blinders...ooohh...too many discoverer is way too dangerous..but we only have 2 maintainers...Testing needs more..they need to follow procedure blabalbalablabala!!!!!!


New discovery this week - I love plain water...i can drink it now without cordial :) wink wink..miss u dear...BUT..I put 3-4 slice of fresh lemon..so it tasted a bit sourish..and I looove it..no more plain taste or chlorine taste..and it's good for my health..as no sugar added..just lemon and a little of love for my body which makes it even better :D The Ribena on my desk is gonna be the last one :D I am now starting to buy Lemons Lemons Lemons...yummy...


OMG..I have written like a loooong and boring entry...ahh..nevermind..it's not gonna be published in Reader's Digest anyway! And can't wait to check out April's DCM :D It's gonna be fun.

Have you ever felt that sometimes your personality is form by people around you?

Adeshi Mood : Tired..and I need a summer dress...now now now!
Bugsy mood : I want to go out and play tonite...plsss..and i sometimes sneezes..hmm..doc?
Yoshi mood : Bukit Broga? Yippeee.....